It started with pain.
I remember a lot of fear and pain during my childhood.
Fear of being hit again and again for the most ridiculous reasons (Leaving a door open for example). Fear of my older brother, my mum loosing her temper..
I had my fair share of trauma in this life time.
Sexual abuse as a child, physical and emotional abuse and growing up in a super unsafe environment.
Shadow.
All these wounds left deep scars.
When I was a teenager I started struggling with food, with anger, depression and toxic relationships.
I hit my personal rock bottom in my early 20ies.
At that time I worked a job I hated as an Executive Assistant in a fancy office. I was stuck in an extremely toxic relationship that was on/off every other week. I struggled with bulimia and often called in sick because my depression wouldn’t allow me to leave my bed.
I was stuck, unhappy and completely disconnected from myself.
Light.
I had to make a decision.
I knew I would either unalive myself… or I had to change.
But what to do? Where to go? The only thing I knew was that I always wanted to travel.
So I saved up money, quit my fancy apartment, quit my job, quit the toxic relationship I was in and bought a one-way ticket to Australia.
Remembering
I travelled through South East Asia, lived in a van in Australia, backpacked through Mexico, Costa Rica and Guatemala.
4 years I travelled the world and what did I find?
I found myself. Not because of the travels but because of the deep commitment I showed to myself and the healing journey I embarked on.
I started a shadow work practice, remembering all the lost parts from my childhood that I had lost, suppressed, forgotten. I held her in all her pain, loved her fiercly and discovered her beautiful gifts.
I reclaimed my voice, reconnected to my womb, my cycle and my feminine magic.
It has been the most beautiful journey of my life to forget who I was and to rediscover myself in ALL my unique ways.
From a tiny Village to the world.
I grew up in a tiny village in Germany and had my second home in the nearby forest. I can’t even remember when I started singing but there is a Video of me when I was 4 years old, wholeheartedly belting the song from Titanic (making words up, as I didn’t speak english).
I remember locking myself in my dads office for hours to sing by myself. My voice was always there for me. She was my greatest valve for my emotions and gave me grounding in a chaotic household.
When I was 14, I had my first stage experience. It was scary but amazing.
Little did I know that well over 80 performances on stage would follow after that.
I worked with a producer in Germany, was touring with a band through Germany… until the life on stage didn’t fulfill me anymore.
Rediscovering my voice...
Two peak moments were to perform for the German Embassy in Bahrain and a huge Festival in Germany, primetime in front of 5000 people. It was absolutely incredible.
But…I had to realize that this “performing” and entertaining didn’t work for me anymore. My spiritual awakening started during that time too and I stopped singing and performing.
Then, during my healing journey and self-discovery, I reconnected with my voice in a complete new way. An intuitive way. A way that was deep and meaningful. A way that finally aligned with my soul.
At the same time I became a certified Meditation Teacher & EFT Practitioner and started to facilitate workshops in Guatemala, Germany, Belgium, Netherland and Portugal.
And from there many beautiful opportunities started to show up and I shared my voice from a deeper and deeper place.
And today? Today I support women on their healing journey with shadow work and support them to find their unqiue connection between their voice and womb, facilitate workshops at retreats and festivals and I share my voice in many places around the world, feeling so so grateful and finally fulfilled to be able to create deep, transformational journeys for souls on their path.
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Solictice Festival @EAGLES NEST, GUATEMALA
Soundjourney Vol. 1 & 2 @LUSH ATITLAN, GUATEMALA
Ecstatic Boat @ODESSA, AMSTERDAM
Cosmic Convergence @FESTIVAL, GUATEMALA
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Ecstatic Dance, Belgium